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[CKCK-012] Am I Yours? Controlled by You Even Knowing You Won't Be Mine—Convenient Friend-Lover’s Indelible Youth Tattoo, Hinata Natu
"Give me a bite of ice." Other people’s things always look appealing—because they belong to someone else, you want them. This never changes, even as an adult. The boy who conveniently fit into my life during college. He confessed "I love you," but I refused to be in a relationship with him, keeping him as a backup. When my boyfriend’s sex was lackluster or when I felt lonely, I’d message him: "Can we meet now?" He’d always reply, "Sure." He was my convenient crutch. Even after graduation, he never got a stable job, working part-time at the same bar from his student days. It seems he chose this job so he could always rush to my side when called. When I finally brought my boyfriend to the bar as a working adult, it was to see his jealous expression. He apparently dated a female part-timer from the same bar and looked visibly awkward. Other people’s things always look appealing… make you crave them… Change of plan—*I’ll steal him*. When I finally asked for a physical connection, he didn’t refuse. Just like in college, I’d call him at my convenience and we’d repeat the sex. He truly loved me… yet struggled with the dilemma of not being able to claim me as his own. He suddenly announced he’d return to his hometown to reassess his life. I won’t stop him… but while there are plenty of substitutes for a boyfriend, there’s no one who can replace *you*. I selfishly wish you’d always stay in love with me… I’ve left you with an indelible youth tattoo that will never fade…
[CKCK-012] [English Subtitles] Am I Yours? Controlled by You Even Knowing You Won't Be Mine—Convenient Friend-Lover’s Indelible Youth Tattoo, Hinata Natu